That's kind of how it was for me. I took great care to appear as normal as possible so I wouldn't have to confront giving it up. It was a complete mental shift that got me to quit. I realized I was at the point where I go all in and be a proper drunk or quit and never look back. I was actually too afraid to keep on the way I was going. You really sound like you have made that shift. The next year or two is not going to be easy for you but it beats the hell out of the alternative. Throw everything you can at this.
Complete abstinence is easier than perfect moderation...This means YOU Silentrun!