Originally Posted by
BixBees505 
And I'd SURE like to "get on with my life".
Your revulsion at your poor habits, choices and regular drunkeness being pointed out is pure AV. The mature adult inside might be a little wounded by these shortcomings being brought to light, but your Beast is the one positively shrieking with rage!
It is telling you that you are not so bad even if you willingly and intentionally get plastered on a regular basis. It isn't your fault, your are sick. You have a disease, require support and a steady stream of excuses and blah blah blah.
It is telling you everything except the truth: that you really should quit drinking. Don't you think you should?