Yes, the 'not knowing' is awful. My ex-husband and I dithered for months and it was just prolonged agony. The writing was on the wall. Once it was final, things got much easier fairly quickly. Sounds like you have a great outlook, Zab :-)
P.S. Sao, I refuse to believe it was 100 % your fault, but then I'm biased, and happy to be :-)