Thank you for the replies everybody!
I like what MesaMan said about essentially customizing recovery methods to suit your own needs. I love this forum/website, it has always been a very safe and encouraging place to visit so even though I made my Big Plan I still of course like/want to check in here from time to time (in my case right now that's everyday). Mostly I just read other people's stuff. So far I've been very cognisant of those "Beastly" thoughts popping up in my mind as images/feelings/doubts etc. I feel like I have a better sense of what that means now than I did when I was younger. That beast has its own propaganda machine going on in my head and I notice it more now and I am better able to disassociate from it and recognize it as the BS that it is!
