Congrats on not drinking, Holds.
I'm having a seriously rough day of the existential sort. I can relate to the "is this what life is?" feeling.
As you say though, I don't know what it's like if I stick through this stuff... I do know what it's like if I start drinking again... so I guess I'll just be hanging on for a bit.
Hopefully your doctor visit will give you some answers on the physical situation at least.