I'm sorry - I failed tonight. Feeling like a failure all around. My marriage failed, my kids aren't where I expected they would be (one has autism so that's a whole can of mashed dreams but the other two, not living to their potential) oh I'm a mess. Sorry guys. I just looked at my calendar for the month of October and canceled ALL social plans so I can work on myself. I want sobriety. Thanks for caring... I will pick up the pieces tomorrow and try again.