Originally Posted by
patricia68 
That's exactly how I feel Lovehoops. And I don't know how to ask for what I need or how to set boundaries, because for many years I drank to numb my needs and feelings and kept going anyway.
They walked all over me but because I was drunk so it didn't hurt so much. I would be tired, overwhelmed, terrified...and I drunk and kept going.
Now I don't know how to ask, or set boundaries while sober. I feel like they don't care about me...when the truth is I have no clue how to ask...so I resent them.
Originally Posted by
patricia68 I can't stop thinking that I'm not worth it Dee...how do I go from killing myself with alcohol and pills every day to treating my life and body with respect? I don't even remember when was the last time I looked at the mirror and felt like I deserved something good...
The future terrifies me Dee...
None of us jumped into recovery without needing a little renovatin' Patricia
I had no idea on boundaries and I was terrified of the future too - but I trusted people here who said it would get better - and it did.
If you've done things a second way for years it's gonna take a little time to learn some new ways...but it's worth it. You're worth it
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