Awww, Patricia. I'm sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time. I don't really have any advice, and definitely nothing better than Key and others have already said.
Could you maybe take a break though? I remember a few pages back you were saying all you wanted was a 1 hour nap, and couldn't even get that. Do you have a friend or family member you could visit for a bit? Two fold. One, you get a change of scenery to help clear your mind and heart. And two, let your family fend for themselves for 5 days or so, and maybe they'll realize they under appreciate you.
Regardless, I hope you begin to feel better soon.
