Hi Patricia-
I am so sorry to hear that you have had a bad couple of days- Bigs hugs to you. I hope that today shines brightly and that you are able to put the past behind you and move forward. Remember that you are gift to this world even if you can't see that yet. You have your son -he loves you and thinks the world of you- see yourself through his eyes. Have you and your husband thought of counseling?
Im sending you lots of prayers and positive energy.. I hope today is a good for you and you continue down the path of sobriety and self care.