Sometimes we just make bad decisions. Sometimes we do things we shouldn't. Sometimes we hurt people we didn't mean to or say things we shouldn't. If we didn't we wouldn't be human. It's only amplified because we are also alcoholic. I'm not that person anymore. You just get to the point where you don't forget but you use it as a tool to remember how that felt and how you don't want to go back there ever again. Once you've allowed yourself to be a person who has made mistakes, learn from them and leave them where they lay, in your past, then you can make amends to the people who were involved. But not until you are strong enough to forgive yourself. You don't forget, you accept it for what it is, a terrible mistake that wouldn't have happened under the normal you. You aren't that person anymore. Does that make sense at all?