Hope Tiki feels better Leshar! Sending you lots of hugs today. Dee and Snoozy are right - drinking will just make you feel 100 times worse. I know what you mean about being around family members that drink. My family members are always drinking when we get together (which probably hasn't helped my sobriety) and they would stop drinking around me in a heartbeat if I asked them to, but I pretend I am fine around them. Hmm, maybe I need to be honest at some point and tell them I am struggling .... Anyway, you absolutely doing the right thing by staying away from that first drink.