Oh I'm so sorry Up...that is a lot of loss & has to be really tough. I wish there was something I could say to ease your pain...I do care though & would hate to see you hurt yourself by going back out...your kids are young yet& I do believe they comeRoind in time. I heArd someone share in a meeting the other day, that He made amends to his Dad at the cemetary...thAt was all he could do & that it was healing for him to do that. I'm going out for a bit but will be around if you want to talk through PM. Please stay with us....