Forabetterlife.... I'm in the same boat as you, tempted to just drink because I know "I could" but playing it through I don't want to be back in that hell again and I don't want to throw away 19 days of pretty good stuff, and all that trouble I went to, to do my detox, all those people that helped me. It would be a very temporary high for literally nothing. I'm about to make some tomato soup and take my boys to a scout campfire / sing along. I remember going last year and enjoying it but also thinking it went on way too long as I wasn't home till half 9 and had to delay my drinking till then. I guarantee I would have swallowed wine within 60 seconds of walking through the front door. I could delay it ok, but when it was available I needed it immediately. Sad. Not tonight. Will enjoy, come home, stay sober, log on and tell you about a few funny songs they learnt ; )))