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Leshar I'm mired in what a **** I was to Larry when I was drinking. Can't seem to stop obsessing about that. He was worried about my drinking. He said just before he died "I'm worried you're going to become an alcoholic" meaning after he died and I'd be alone. Well, I was drinking alcoholically long long before, it's certainly become horribly worse with blackouts since he died.
You've been sober for over two years now. Larry would be so proud of that and happy for you. Try focusing on that when those thoughts hit you.
Glad you're being active with AA meeting and acting classes, etc. Those are great steps forward, Leshar.
Wishing everyone a happy and sober day today...