Please vent away Briar. I echo what Mark said in regards to acceptance. That's a lot to process. It reminds me of the aftermath of Sandy around here. And the year before that it was the superstorm that nailed us with heavy snow in October with all the leaves still on the trees. Being in the arboriculture business we had quite the mess to deal with.
I feel really different this time around. Really, really good in fact. It's been less than two weeks since my last drink, but something's different this time around. I've finally accepted all this I think. I'm excited for the future. I've got a lot of tools and support now in my kit. It's all making a difference. It took a couple years to get to this point, but I don't care. I finally feel free now. I just gotta stay focused. I want it more than anything right now.
Have a great day team.