Wow Leshar I am truly sorry your going through a rough patch. I can relate to feelings of hopelessness and sadness. It all feels so overwhelming in sobriety. I dont express my feelings through crying but more through rage and anger. I find myself getting so upset i go for a drive. Just to get away from eveyone and thing. I try to tell myself I will feel better tomorrow. However, the time seems to stop when those emotions appear. I try to rationalize and be mindful when i am in a better frame of mind. It will get better and normally does.. I wish you well.