Emme, you did a brave thing- first by posting here and second by not drinking it. It's not just you, there is a switch in our addictive brain that can be so easily flipped If we are not on guard and in the right mindset. But there are things we can do if that switch flips and you did them by posting here and removing the alcohol. The next step is to either pour it or give it away, whatever, but do it asap. I have to admit in the past I have bought wine or beer on day ___(fill in the blank) and kept it hidden away, not telling SR., as my own little security blanket, sometimes for weeks. Of course, i inevitably drank it. Because it's so much easier in a weak moment if it's right there. Sooo proud of you, and you will be too when you wake up and remember.