I tried quitting twice, for (everyone defines long differently, but) 2 long stretches- 4 months, and 6 months. I didn't enjoy it. I didn't enjoy my life. I DID, indeed, feel that I was missing out on a lot.
I also do NOT enjoy being hung over, sneaking around to drink a bottle of booze in a day, and lying to my wife all the time about have I been drinking, or 'are you drunk right now?'.
I both cannot, and am terrified, of an image of a life not drinking 'at all', and unlike years ago, I have at least some evidence of the reasons being (at least in part) true.
So, I am up ****'s creek, i am sure, in the minds of many on here. I don't want to drink today, or tomorrow. I would love to not drink this week.
Dee/all- At this point, can you pray that I can reach those modest goals at least? Please?