haha...Incontrol, just before I read your post I had finished writing off the top of my head a very long entry in my own journal--don't know if it was three pages but it was more than two--and came to the conclusion that I need to go to an AA meeting tonight no matter what and let that resentment go. So that's my plan. I'm getting dressed now. I'll check back in later tonight. Thanks to Incontrol and Dee for responding so quickly. I'll take anybody else's good thoughts and/or prayers as well. Thanks!