Thanks Incontrol, glad I made you chuckle
I've always been the type of person who needs a lot of distractions; I'll play a game while chatting online while having some wine or a cigarette for example. But now I'm playing Skyrim (love this game so much) and posting and reading on here but I can feel that void. I have a vape which has been helping with the nicotine cravings (I used to think it was great how I only smoke when drinking but then realised that, if you're drinking every day, you're smoking every day and your whole 'social smoker' thing is a load of crap. I'm a moron) but sipping ice tea just isn't the same.
You're right, of course. Living a better life and accomplishing all the things I want to do are all great reasons to keep going but the F**k It Demon is really shouting at me today.
Soldiering on *stomps around*