One of my favorite posts that pushed me to join SR was alphaomega's "is two bottles of wine a night a lot" - which really captured the anxiety that came along with drinking too much. The middle of the night jolt is what i do not miss AT ALL when being sober! 3 AM and my body would jolt awake, heart racing, cotton mouth....reach for water, start deep breathing and laying in the dark next to my peacefully sleeping-stop at two drinks-husband, just willing myself to not have a heart attack that very night. Making promises by 330 AM that I would NEVER do this again. Stumbling to the kitchen at 4 AM for a banana to try and boost myself a little.......
Google her post if you need a quick read to stave off a craving!!!