I know this may sound a bit banal BBB, but everything will be alright. I say to myself during times of stress "do what you can, and then stop worrying", because worrying achieves nothing and makes you feel awful. I actually have wondered if subconsciously we sometimes think "I *need* to worry about this" because we believe things will either get better if we worry, or worse if we don't worry.
You guys are all doing great! Well done letitgo - pouring out that red wine you used to slam (lol).
I hate thinking about past, drunken events, Upwards. I know what you mean :-/
I hope everyone manages to get better sleeps soon. Good luck with your blood tests, cbf. Let us know how you go :-)