Originally Posted by
gcolema2 
I know recovery is hard and not easy but darn it am tired of these damn dreams. I can't recall the dream that I had last night but the voice woke me out of my sleep and had me saying wtf. He being my xabf called me in my dream and simply said hey there his voice was so clear it was almost as if he was really calling me in real life. All I could say was huh I was really confused. I hate this **** my feelings are really in turmoil these damn dreams. Please just stop they are torture. But to look at it from a positive way am feeling right? In the past I would've stuffed my feelings and try to find a way to not deal.
Thank you for sharing. I think what you're going through is normal, and it's your brain processing what happened. I've been separated with no contact from my XA fiancé for almost 5 months now, and I still have some nightmares where she and her brother are there, and I'm trying to get away. Recovery is really tough sometimes, but I know one day I won't have the nightmares anymore.
I would encourage you to do what's best for you. Don't let dreams dictate what you should or shouldn't do. The most important thing right now is staying sober and away from toxic people.