Thanks, Casey. I think the biggest part of the problem is that the primary person who could help only does so around her using schedule. She makes a lot of promises to be here but something always comes up. Most times, she just never shows up and I never hear a word why.
Then, I feel like a giant hypocrite because I too am an addict and used to treat my family the same way. It's a vicious cycle of hurt, hypocrisy, anger, etc.
Focusing on gratitude would probably be very helpful. I do appreciate being able to vent and getting input. It helps.