Troy I will pray for you. ((hug)) Hang in there. Sometimes when things seems to be falling apart, maybe better things are trying to fall in place. All you can do is own it and try to start the repair on it somehow and change things so it never happens to you again. I am not in your shoes, I know. Easy for me to say. Just trying to hash it out with you and maybe offer some words of encouragement. Just my thoughts.