Detox is going fine, but those thoughts are still stronger then they should be.
I don't know, I don't think I can get out of this. I'm in too deep now. There's no way I'm getting out of this hole I've dug for myself. I keep trying to think through things rationally, and this is the best route.
I screwed up big time on this binge, and pissed off my main clients via one of my disappearing acts. I'm basically unemployed now. Have some money, but will most likely be homeless within a couple months. Then the police will pick me up, and off to the Immigration Detention Center I go for overstaying, which will also spell the end of my dog's lives.
I won't have the ambition or fortitude to rebuild my client list in time. Yeah, I think I'm done.