Thanks, everyone. I'm not well enough really to think of a living change at present. I see my psychiatrist on Tuesday. Clearly my current anti depressants aren't working.
Snoozy, dearest, don't go away please. You are very ill your disease is a strong enemy. Let us help you fight it. Have you thought about AA? I've been going, just for the community really, I still struggle with the higher power concept. But there can be a supportive community of women in the groups. Thinking of you dear one, you are much loved here, don't disappear.