Croissant, you are so right about the quick fix. I so, so want to numb out with sleeping pills. I found an old prescription yesterday for zopliclone, a sleeping pill, and I took 4 in the afternoon and just crashed on the couch all day. I just want to be anaesthetized, damn it. A long weekend and no one to see, talk to, old resentments brimming over, tremendous fear, huge anxiety. The whole HALT thing and I couldn't stop myself. I so, so, want to do the same today, I can't seem to face life. A friend just called and that was nice. I told her what I'd done and that my plan was to gather all old prescription bottles and bring them to the pharmacy. Please give me the strength to do it!
I don't want to be a drug addict as well as an alcoholic.