I tell you what, I'm noticing how many thought processes I question now.
Just pondering here, but I can see things I get superstitious about, or anxious about and how limited my decisions were because of them. Not only when I was drinking but in the beginning of recovery. I know we have to take things easy in the early days, but yes, things that would send me into a panic attack of sorts at one time, I can handle ok now.
Stupid things, like I had to do a trip over the other side of town the other day, and I wondered why I had echoes of feeling anxious (because deep down, I love to drive). And I guess part of it must be that old anxious, "how is this trip going to interfere with my drinking routine today?".....so much of your life is tied to drinking, that any little blip that changes that routine begins a series of panic, and frustration and fear.
Sorry....just some musings on how ingrained this disease is into so much of our responses to life.
Anyway, off to work!