While I was drinking, I thought about how limiting being sober would be. All I could think of were all the things that habitually involved alcohol that would be taken from me.
Now I see how confining that was, and how my life is fuller, richer, busier, happier. I still do many of those things I used to due while drinking, but now I really enjoy them, and I can even remember them!
Congratulations, Brynn. Change is indeed scary, but it is how we grow. Graduate school is exciting - I am sure it will be what you need it to be. You are doing just great with your new you.