Thanks Swim, maybe I'll hang around here too.
Over the last 2 months I've noticed something's in myself, that I'd read about, that scared me.
One was out drinking with 2 friends. One left for the train and the other, a light drinker, wanted to stay out longer. I told him I was drunk and had to go. In reality I just went to another bar myself. And another is the ever-increasing consumption over the years. Two weeks ago I almost got involved with a married woman and would have if we could have found a place. I've been married almost 20 years to a beautiful and truly wonderful woman, whom I love. I also have kids. The next morning I was aghast but it took her until the middle of the next week to stop texting me. My behaviour is becoming risky tinged with craziness.
It simply has to stop.