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Old 09-04-2015, 10:02 AM
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RustyBanjo
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Originally Posted by KeyofC View Post
46 days sober
Keep waiting for the "good" feeling to come back. The one where I felt alright and felt good I was doing something positive. The one where I don't need constant reassurance. I keep pushing out the negative me and try not to let those emotions control me. I don't want that anymore. Think I'm going to find me a therapist. Is anybody else dealing with these "set backs"?
Yes - I'm still on a rollercoaster. Up and down. The first few weeks it felt like I had more ups, but now it almost feels like I've settled into a mild depression from obsessing about not being able to drink. I hope it passes with time, but I too feel like I'm always fighting my negative me. I've seen a therapist but its expensive and I feel like he tells me the same stuff he's told me a thousand times before.

40th Bday in a few weeks. I'm also going to the Seahawks home opener in a few weeks. I really hope I can find the outlook to find joy in those events and not just be bummed I can't drink.
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