I don't have all the answers either WD
I view it as a problem I keep managed as long as I don't drink or get high and I continue to live by the personal and spiritual standards I've set myself in my recovery.
That's not meant to be an obfuscatory answer.
I spent years trying to define my problem, but in the end, for me, the solution didn't need me to define what the problem was....I just needed to stop drinking, getting high, and stop running from myself.
if I do this, this, and this, I have a great life - it works for me
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