Today is September 1st. I feel I've got to keep fighting. It's a new month. What's the alternative, I don't want to die and leave a colossal mess for others. I feel about 90 but I'm grateful I'm not. I've still got some fight in me somewhere. I will draw on the love, strength and support of this wonderful group. Self hate is powerful, like the AV, but I will try one minute at a a time.