I'll stick here if it's ok with y'all.
I blacked out or so etching yesterday. Wife told me we took a 4wheeler ride and I have no, I mean NO recollection of even going. I never drink more than a pint because that's how I tell myself I'm at the cutoff. Don't recall blacking out much.
I'm really freaked out. Could've hurt my family in an accident and never remembered it.
Nerves aren't bad right now, but I'm gonna be a wreck in a few days Probly. Gotta crank up the treadmill hard and heavy. I'm really really weirded out by this.
I think this is it for me. Looking at my pictures of my family.
Self loathing. Boy we're good at it.