It's a bleak place to be Wendy - and your inner addict will pummel you with fear and doubt and make that last hurrah sound like the sanest and safest thing thing in the world.
I understand too why you had the siren call yesterday and drank - I did stuff like that too.
This is scary stuff, even tho it's a move forward...but please - don't listen to that voice tonight - it's done.
Its reign of terror is over
Be safe and be ready for that call tomorrow whenever it comes, ok?
This is the cusp of a new beginning Wendy - but also a return to the real you
God bless
D