I'm on day 25 so I don't have any long term advice. Honestly I'm trying my best to not categorize sobriety into two parts, short and long. I know the thoughts you are having about failing in the future Troy because I have them too, but maybe try to think of it as sobriety only. I think some people survive the short term because a possible reward of drinking is down the road. I know my AV has tried that with me. Handle it for a month, 6 months, a year...then your a moderation ninja with the jazz hands to wave off the next round. Unfortunately I know that would not be the outcome. I like the "play the tape" scenario I've read on here several times. It's a good way to grasp reality for the moment if you start giving in. Take care everyone.