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Old 08-27-2015, 05:43 AM
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Upwardspiral
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Starting day 39 and felt like checking in this morning. This is the longest I've been sober since I started drinking some 13 years ago.
In the last few days I've gotten this momentary sinking feeling similar to what happens in my drinking dreams: I suddenly think "when am I gonna forget what's important and slip?" As if it has to happen sooner or later. Someone's post about slipping and drinking one single drink after a few months sober made my stomach churn the other day: I saw myself in that, tried it on for size in my mind for a second. I remind myself that it doesn't ever have to happen, my AV just hopes it will, but for a minute I feel doomed.
For this reason sobriety continues to stay very close to the surface of my mind throughout the day. One day at a time.
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