Day 18.
Everyone have those experiences where you smell something and it triggers an onslaught of strong memories? Happened to me this morning. It was the first day it felt like fall. A little chill on the air, dew on the cars. I don't know what the smell was exactly, but it reminded me of fall, leaves falling, football. And the drinking that goes with all that -- beers for the game, a few screwdrivers with breakfast before going down to tailgate. Red wine around thanksgiving, etc. etc.
Suddenly if felt like this is such an impossible mountain to climb...to actually NEVER drink again? Tried to force it out of my head and just get through today. I wish I could just be normal and stop obsessing over this. AV wont shut up.