Wow guys, huge night out for me. Went straight to the usual bar, hanging with my drinking crowd like usual and had... listen to this... 2 coffees and 5 glasses of water. Even though I was feeling super depressed and stressed during the day, I had a nice time and it was honest to god, so refreshing not to drink. Not to have that dark cloud hanging over my head...
I used alcohol as a reward system, of course, but actually managing not to drink feels 10 times more rewarding.
There is something about knowing Im not drunk, not gonna have my usual insomnia episodes, blackouts, gonna wake up tomorrow ready for new challenges. Might not be with a smile on my face at first, but I'd rather go for 20 days of depression than experience another blackout or whatever that poison caused me before.