Originally Posted by
Jsbodhi 
I get insomnia so I drink to sleep.
Its also Russian roulette if I drink with others, I can be lovely, or a deranged lunatic- safer if I'm alone at home.
Sounds familiar.
At age 32, you can have more years of sobriety ahead of you than a lot of us. It was at about that age, maybe a little older, when I made the transition to more drinking at home alone than with others. Trust me, it is a Russian roulette all its own.
Because I'd become a closet drinker, there aren't many people in my life who know I'd become an alcoholic. It is every bit as dangerous, maybe more. And, yeah, the point when one bottle isn't enough is a sad wake-up call, one I ignored.