I'm checking in here. I don't know what to say, really, to people for some reason, right now. I'm sorry about that.
Today I did a comprehensive report for work with absolutely zero anxiety. Spreadsheet and all. It was absolutely no big deal. (In the sense that I did not sweat over my ability to do it, when to do it, how to do it, why do it, etc. It was, in fact, a big deal to do it. And it was a big deal that I did it, because I had this ridiculous anxiety about very basic responsibilities in my job and I drank and drank over really basic things, only to skate through with something passable at the last, hungover, second.) My report was due Monday so I thought I'd just get it in Saturday so I won't have to think about it.
Now I'm going for a walk in the state park. All of this simplicity is really pleasant.