Good for you Kim for not driving that plane into the ground. You grabbed a parachute and jumped.
And yeah...see a doctor about the mood issues. You (we) have a couple things at play. Alcoholics often are self medicating. Things can be different if we let a doctor medicate. They can be a lot better in fact. Alcoholics often have issues that need to be dealt with. Medicine prescribed will help for sure, but not cure. Counseling is what cures how we deal with the issues that cause depression and anxiety.
We have not been spending the past few years learning how to cope. In fact, we've spent them forgetting natural methods. We've ******** our natural abilities to overcome.
On top of that, we have PAWS to deal with. It's normal to be moody for a little while after dropping a long term addiction.
Another way to look at it....
You need to do something different than what you have been doing. Going to a doctor and following his/her advise is something that is easy to do and could very well be a life changer.
I believe most of us are not equipped to effectively handle stress or depression. I believe most of us need professional guidance in that regard. If nothing else, at least to learn some alternative methods for handling stress and depression.
The most important thing is that you recognize where you are. You didn't give up and you are still fighting. That takes determination and resolve. You came out of the experience knowing that drinking didn't help a damn thing. Now you're stronger. You can free your mind of those kind of thoughts and let others take over, like learning different ways for addressing stress.
You're doing great Kim. That's what matters. Just think of it as a process. Be good to yourself today and allow yourself some slack. Anxiety and depression will be higher than normal after drinking.