Hi, All. I'm back on Day One. I've had a really rough time the last month, just feeling depressed more often than not. This week at work I was completely disengaged, I just sat at my computer and stared at the screen. I did not feel good at all. So what does my AV do? Tell me alcohol will make the bad feelings go away. And I listened! I'm upset with myself but have strengthened my resolve to never drink again. I'm an alcoholic and I cannot drink safely. I drove drunk last night and I'm so thankful nothing happened. I can never put myself in that situation again. One day at a time. This will be my last Day One. I'm ready to put in the hard work to stay sober. I know it will not be easy, but it will get easier. And I want to live a sober life. I hope you all have a good weekend. Take it from me: drinking will not make anything better!!