Oh Troy sweetie. You may find as your sober longer and more secure in yourself you find that part of you that is willing to trust again. I do hope so. My problem is the opposite I leap in and trust again too easily and wind up ignoring the little red flags that tell 'no sweetheart this is not the one, run.'
I hope we both find that special someone some day but first we both have to find ourselves. Our men, wherever they are out there, are just going to have to wait for us. We deserve someone special but we also deserve to love ourselves.