Thanks Gilmer.
I must admit I'm having a 'poor me' sort of day
Sometimes it feels like nothing goes my way
I've really worked hard to get where I am
But sometimes I think, "This is it? Damn"
I want to share my feelings, but how do I find the words to say?
When I'm already feeling way too vulnerable
How do I make exposing more feel comfortable?
I admit to feeling in kind of a dark place
Why is it so hard to control what goes on in my head space?
Sometimes I feel like I'm just not lovable
I've tried so hard to do everything right
Of course, most days I feel better than tonight
It's so easy to feel bad and complain
But does it really compare to the past pain?
Is there some way my thoughts I could rewrite?
Is there some reason why I have to rely
On getting my self-esteem from some guy?
Why are these thoughts so very entrenched
I could blame it on him, but that would be pretense
It's something in me, to claim otherwise would be to lie
I found myself in this exact same spot with the last one
I thought, "If I get a new guy, these feelings will be done"
But here I am feeling just the same
I'm starting to think I'm the one to blame
I want to fix this, rather than to just run