Oh Wendy.
I hope and pray you can beat back the urges.
I remember how fearful you were about having permanent damage from drinking. I would never want that fear to grip you ever again, sweetness.
I will let you all in on a rather stark fact. It sometimes seems like I have the tiger by the tail when it comes to alcoholism. But, frankly it is quite hard on occasion. Thankfully I am determined this time to beat this and remain sober.
There 's one rather large reason that I try to stay on track.
If I were to drink again. There is the very real scenario that I would drop off this site and not return....ever. Or at the very least, a very long time.
My drinking would grip me again so hard that I would simply move away from here and drinking would consume all my "free" time. I know that sounds strange, but, my personality would lead me down that path.
And that my friends would sadden me very much as I do care about you all.
So I will continue with my new sober life. Not just for health, happiness and the joys of being aware of life. But also so I can remain here with you all.