Hi Willow. I had those types of thoughts too before my relapse. Romantisizing drinking and thinking about future vacations where maybe I would be able to drink. Those are toxic thoughts that were made by my AV. I think it's best to shoot them down as they pop up by playing the tape through. Like, what would really happen if you had a few drinks at the wedding? Would you stop or keep going? Would you be a sloppy mess and embarrass yourself? For me I know the answer would be yes. There is no happy ending with alcohol and there never will be. Focus on today and how not drinking today will set you up for a better tomorrow. Hang in there!