I'm so ashamed. I just give up on weekends. I have all these good ideas and rn my mouth all week long about things, and I just lay down and quit on myself on weekends. Oh I get a lot of work done.
I just feel worthless starting Monday mornings off feeling like everything I post or think about is just gonna be crap because I'll pour it back come fri-Sunday. Its 0245 Monday here. Not really hung over. Just sick of being here. Supposed to have a blood test done in the morning. Not going. Gonna wait a week, and stay sober, because I know what my liver functions gonna look like.
I didn't post on here this weekend because I was ashamed at being a hypocrite and an addict.
I don't know if I can ever get a handle on this. I just don't know. I don't want to die a drunk, but you wouldn't know it if you see me for the 3 hrs each weekend evening.
Sorry for rambling. Just feeling low.