It's always interesting to hear about other people's paths, Saskia. We all have to find our own way.
My own journey hasn't included any meds so far. It's been a hard battle which I look at as my true self versus a deep rooted addiction and, importantly, heavily ingrained behaviour patterns. Intellectualising my struggles and meditating on them has helped me arrive at a place of relative peace.
Of course it is still early days for me and I am yet to reach the 4 month mark but I have already come much further than I would have thought possible just 16 weeks ago. I feel perhaps like a fish that has slipped out of an ever closing suffocating net. I feel lucky, even blessed, and hope with all my heart never to become ensnared again!
Wishing you all well and hoping to hear a few other stories of your own journeys so far (?)!
Enjoy the day